Hey everyone, as some of you know I was out of town last week for my Grandma's funeral, I have been trying to settle back in to routine these last couple days, and while that is no excuse for not completing my requirements I am being honest in saying that it has not been a part of my priorities this last week. This yet again brings me back to the idea of balance. I am a very all or nothing type of person, and for me and how I have been in martial arts means training A LOT! I struggle with and feel bad about not being there and additionally getting out of the routine swings me to the nothing end of things where I have a hard time getting motivated to be doing what I need to do. I realize that at this point in the test that there is no room for that, I hope that all of you were as affected by Master Tom's disappointment in us as I was. It was hard to think that after all the work I have put in up to this point, it did not show during his class with us. I realize what our expectations are and want to exceed them, not fall short. I will be pushing myself to do this but may need help from time to time to ensure I do not slip or get distracted, please check in with me if I am not there either physically or mentally. I could really use that team mentality now.
Chels not to worry.
ReplyDeleteI have been drifting a bit with the minor health issues I have had lately as well.
My work is pretty wild right now as well. This week I came in and another department had tried to allocate my time for 5 weeks the first two weeks of September out of town. Right now I am letting my management deal with this.
Of course I am happy to serve LP in any way I can when it gets down to it.
Try not to worry about drifting a bit at times it is a natural part of one of these processes.
And yes I know it is easy for me to say that to you but not so easy when I am kicking myself in the Butt when I am not doing what I think I should be doing. LOL.
Just keep a good attitude and Oct. 20 will be here before we know it.
Steven